Monday, January 25, 2010

Eleventh Hour

This weekend has been one of the hardest for us all. The seizures just never seemed like they were going to end. They got to the point where dad didn't even record them as they were just going on and on with a two to three hour break in between. I'd only just started to recover when another would strike and leave me all debilitated, disorientated and blind.

11th Hour Dad had a decision to make that I know weighed heavily on his conscience. Was it the time that all pet owners know will arrive eventually but fear having to make the call?

Dad had been up all night each of the nights from Friday. Sleeping when he could on the sofa downstairs. I spent most of the time between seizures pacing and whining or just laying there wanting attention, but not wanting attention, just not knowing what I needed or wanted.

So we went into Monday with dad lying on the sofa again. At midnight I started with a Tabasco moment and dad caught it in time to stop the full seizure. This repeated a few more times, and then again at 3am and again just as mum got downstairs at 7am. Dad managed to catch them and stop the full seizure. Having had to stay home another day from work he was exhausted from lack of sleep.

Since 7am there's been no more sign of the seizures. I've just reverted to the state where I'm scared of most things, strange noises like the telephone or someone upstairs cause me to jump in surprise and look for the source. I'm struggling with commands and wont sit or lie down without being helped through it. But there's still something of me in there. Dad made some toast and whilst he was making it I eagerly raised my paw to ask for some, I just love butter (well margarine).

So at least now dad can get some sleep and with some retraining and care I'm sure I'll be back to my old self soon. It's then just a question of how long until the next cluster? But for today, we'll just live in the moment.

6 comments:

  1. First, our thoughts and prayers are with you all. I can only imagine how difficult this last series of seizures were and how hard the overall situation is. Roxy knows you'll always do what's best for her and that's all anyone could ask.

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  2. Thank you for your kind words. This time around I'm not sure my best is good enough. She's currently a very different dog, but we're working on it.

    I'm also worried that had it not been the weekend I could have made a wrong decision too early. It's just so unfair. We're supposed to know when... but I'm not so sure.

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  3. Poor Roxy. We're so sorry the meds weren't helping decrease her seizures. We had finally gotten Angel Snickers seizures under control very well with just the Potassium Bromide, then that evil cancer monster struck her. It's so unfair that our pets have to suffer so. You'll know when the time comes for Roxy. Sounds like the seizures might be starting to cause some brain damage. Just keep watching her for little signs, she'll tell you when the time is right for her to go meet up with our Angel Snickers. We'll be praying for Roxy.
    Wirey Hugs, Purrz & Licks,
    Butchy, Ruby, Sylvester, Scuby, Hootie & Mama

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  4. As I was googling canine epilepsy I came across your blog. My dog has epilepsy as well. He is almost 9 and they started about 3 1/2 years ago. His seizures are about one month apart and occur in clusters too. He is laying right beside me right now as we wait for the next one (he has had 2 in the past 3 hours). He is on meds for a hypothyroid and on a heavy dose of Potassium Bromide. Mcgraw recently had 12 seizures within 36 hours with the last 8 being separated by 30 minutes. The vet couldn't even stop them and I thought it was the moment I had dreaded since it all began. They finally stopped! I am thankful for everyday I have with him....our dogs are like our children...we would do anything for him. Stay strong and I know Roxy is so thankful to have someone who cares and loves her so much! God Bless!

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  5. @Mcgraw'smom Hope you have an easy time of this cluster. It's a terrible affliction and I know exactly what you're going though.

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  6. ooo roxy, i so worried about u...i checked ur bloggie often, but for some reason all that was here was about whaling...me will keep u in me thoughts and prayers, that u get over this nasty illness...

    b safe,
    ~rocky~

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